Tuesday, December 23, 2003

Cheap shots galore.

Recently, my nerves went haywire.

Missed a meeting with Dhora, and got too cross with her. Should've understood her problems a little better back then.

She's forgiven me, but I think I'd better exercise more control over my anger than usual. In fact, I'm finding it harder to maintain the calmness I swore myself to 6 years ago.

I've become more unstable over time. At times, I wonder if I do have it in my soul to continue this life and fulfill my mission.

I hope I can still do this.

Tuesday, December 02, 2003


We humans tend to be a mysterious lot. We usually tend to assume that clothes make the man (or woman).

For example, don a business suit, and walk into a shopping complex, and people will automatically assume that you're a successful businessman (or businesswoman, if you prefer).

And if you happen to be wearing the clothes of a VERY poor person, almost no one in society will EVER give you a second glance!

And yet, when the day has worn itself out, and we retire to our sanctuaries, most of us do one thing.

STRIP. Before stepping into the showers to bathe and refresh ourselves.

Now, before you do the same old routine for today, take a good look at yourself in the mirror (preferably a full-length one) TWICE:

1. Stand in front of the mirror while you're clothed in your usual attire, and give yourself an opinion on how you're feeling at that moment.

2. Then, strip yourself of your clothes, and stand in front of the mirror AGAIN. Give yourself an opinion on how you look THEN.

If you can still feel good about yourself in both situations, congratulations!

If NOT, then, as you look at your nude self, say, "I have all the endowments that God has given me, both in body and spirit. I will NOT allow myself to be belittled by others, for they are the SAME as me. I WILL succeed in Life, no matter how many people put me down!"

I believe that you might feel a whole lot better once you do.

Also, if there's something that you don't like about yourself, again, look at yourself, and say, "I WILL make an attempt to CHANGE, to become a BETTER person!"

Repeat that every time you head off to the showers.

Insya-Allah (God willing), this will help you IMMENSELY.

Now, let's see what THIS causes...^_^;;

Monday, December 01, 2003

A few more details about Saturday...

I NEVER thought that wedding vows were quite tricky to pronounce. My cousin had to repeat his wedding pledge 3 times before he finally got it right.

But then again, I wonder why he offered RM1001 as dowry for the bride.

Shades of "One Thousand and One Nights", perhaps? Could be...^_^;;

The Kadi, a.k.a. the Islamic Justice Of The Peace, mentioned three important things to the newly-wedded couple:

1. One must keep his house filled with knowledge, i.e. teach his whole family well in terms of wisdom.

2. One must keep praying, to ensure that the marriage is continuously blessed by Allah.

3. One must ALSO keep his wife entertained, i.e. a smile to his wife when he gets up, a kiss or hug every now and so often, and of course, foreplay to bring out the best in the two of them...^_^;;

That LAST item had me blushing. But then again, when you fail to ignite the romance in a relationship, it's as good as a DEAD one.

Considering that my parents are always very affectionate, I see why that last item's so important to a married couple; many marriages FAIL because there is a LACK of this.

Enough said.
Wedding's over since yesterday. But that won't stop me from describing the high points of the event...^_^;;

The bride's house happened to be close to a fishing village.

It was quite relaxing to walk over to that village, after a considerable stuffing (burp!).

And if anyone says that checkers is a game that SHOULD be played on an 8 X 8 checkerboard, the fishermen there would tell you otherwise; in their case, it's a 16 X 16 board.

And judging from the waves back then, they had good reason to play on a large board; the sea's waves were large, and the weather was cloudy, signs of an impending storm. Only an insane fisherman would go FISHING in that weather.

Good move there, men!

As for today's run, I ended up stuffing myself again, but I doubt I can keep that BLACK HOLE I call my stomach empty enough for long.

Two things:

1. Earlier that afternoon, one of our relatives in Sungai Pattani visited us, and brought us a copy of our family's medical history, which, incidentally, happened to be a sort of family tree.

I hope she sends me the link to the place, for I'd like to know more about my extended family.

2. Later on, I joined my parents as we visited two other relatives. Hala (Auntie) Om Bee, and Hala Ain.

Hala Om Bee had held a kenduri arwah, or "feast to honour the departed" today, and we arrived at the perfect time - after the prayers for the departed were over, but before the food was finished.

Not to say that I don't honour the dead, but I CAN'T stand sitting down, cross-legged, for long periods of time. So you can tell that I was quite relieved that our timing was JUST right.

And FYI, Hala Om Bee ALSO makes good nasi dalca, a.k.a. "dalca rice", complete with the standard issue of Penangite side dishes.

Needless to say, I was HOOKED. Penang food has something you just CAN'T seem to find in Selangor...and personally, Penang has a certain attraction.

It seems to have a certain charm that's hard to explain. Could be because even though I was born in the state of Selangor, my hometown will always be Penang.

Coming back today, but I'll be headed for Genting Highlands on Friday. If I'm lucky, I'll be blogging from there. It'll be a bit freezing down there, but it's for a good cause.

Friday, November 28, 2003

Currently blogging from rainy Penang. Raya's here, and I'm busy blowing my Raya money on good food and cybercafe stints.

Which, of course, include my blogging stints as well...^_^;;

Can't help but wonder how I've progressed through Life so far; I've seen quite a number of miserable cases before, and given how things are going around the world, I sometimes wonder if anything CAN be done to make things better.

It seems that most of us humans tend to forget that we ARE capable of reaching the stars, preferring instead to remain on the ground, cursing our Fate and God.

A shame and a pity.

Sometimes, I wish that we humans would realize that we all contain seeds of greatness, and that it's up to us to plant them and create a beautiful forest...

But it's NOT too late. My mission here is to make people realize this. And as our numbers gradually increase, we WILL be able to make this Earth peaceful once again.

The road towards that aim will UNDOUBTEDLY be difficult, but I have faith in my friends and comrades.

2-DAYS AFTERWARD, EDIT: Forgot to mention WHY I'm here. A cousin of mine is getting married tomorrow, so I'm busy "preparing" to greet the lucky guy.

Friday, November 14, 2003

Now THIS is funny.

Who'd have thought of THAT? I mean, sure, a lot of people read blogs, but having your dear mother (or father) reading your blog is so...EMBARASSING.

Rule Of Thumb #183:
To quote Kain from the intro of Legacy Of Kain: Soul Reaver 2,

"One must keep his friends close, Raziel, and his enemies EVEN closer!

Always bear in mind that a lot of people frequent blogs, and that means that although you have a small degree of anonymity, DON'T PUSH IT.

In the meantime, I'll be looking up my blog's template again. With luck, I'll figure out how to add the links to blogs I've been to previously.

Wish me luck.

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

17 days into Ramadhan, 18 nights of Terawih prayers.

Before I begin, a link first:

Gendou's Anime Music Page!

That's where I downloaded the FULL version of "Viva Rock". STILL no sign of the ~Japanese Side~ edition. Also picked up "Call Me Call Me", one of the songs from Cowboy Bebop. One of my favourites.

Ramadhan's about to end much faster than I thought. Looks like I'll have to perform the full 23 rakaats once night #21 comes round, which may be much sooner than I think.

Fish sighted in Kuala Lumpur's side of the Klang River.

And I thought that no fish were there....^_^;;

If you still remember my previous fishy tale, you'd remember that I was in Klang when I spotted those guys fishing.

Today, however, I was waiting for a couple of friends to show up, and I happened to be at the Central Market LRT station. One floor below the train terminal, and one floor above ground.

Got a clear view of the Klang River from there. And while I was still wondering when my friends would show up, a fish showed up!

A red snapper. AGAIN. I never really expected that at all.

Kuala Lumpur's side of the Klang river happens to be moderately clean, if you consider the occasional debris nothing more than a mere annoyance. It smells of the sea, strangely enough.

That brackish smell I know all too well, from times long past.

If you happen to come round there, take a sniff!

Monday, November 10, 2003

Let's see now...15 days into Ramadhan.

Picked up a couple of links:

1. Muslim WakeUp.

Lots of articles concerning Islam in many places, plus a few other things. Not that I'm heavily concerned. Still, it's got a few hits in the right places; perhaps it might be able to help humanize Islam, unlike some people who'd prefer to DEMONIZE it.

10-SECOND IMMEDIATE EDIT: I stand corrected. Looks like here's an article worth reading:

How Friday Sermons Should Be Like!

That ought to keep us Muslims awake, instead of putting most of us to sleep every Friday.

2. Hybrid Be: Next Generation's music section.

Picked up Naruto's 3rd anime ending theme from here. It's called Viva Rock, and the group who made this is Orange Range. Kind of catchy. The anime ending's version is called Viva Rock ~Japanese Side~, and is more catchier than this version, but who's complaining?

Hope someone's got the lyrics.

In other news, only a few more days remain before the CNDS exam hits me in the face. Unfortunately, my emotions seem to be on CRACK at this moment. Not a good sign.

Wish me luck. And luck with a few girls...^_^;;

Hey, who said Ramadhan had to be BORING?

Now, go and download that MP3. Trust me, it's addictive.


My inner child is ten years old today

My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
brought to you by Quizilla

Almost true. I'm more of a walking person.

Wednesday, November 05, 2003

APIIT's going to KILL me if they spot me downloading MP3s, but THIS site's worth it, at least to me.

Rockman / Mega Man soundtracks!

The music there's pretty good, but I'm going to need lots of cash to buy the CDs.

In other news, Mahoromatic: Motto Utsukushii Mono (Mahoromatic: Something More Beautiful) a.k.a. the 2nd season of this anime is currently casting a shadow over my exam revision.

I mean, it's quite a deep anime. Of course, I suggest you watch the first season before you pick up this one by any means, Kazaa being one such idea...^_^;;

Here's a few links:

1. Cassie's take on Mahoro...

2. Mahoromatic Love, version 3.0.

And, of course, there's always Google.

Checking out this blog, I noticed that although it may seem as if no one comments much in my message-boxes, there ACTUALLY are comments!

Blame it on shoddy code. Still haven't gotten round to my other blog at Danchan's YET.

GemWing holds sway over it, but repairs and upgrades to it will take quite some time.

Here's the Blood Phoenixes' 2nd Sanctuary. Still under much construction.

Monday, November 03, 2003

Day 8 of Ramadhan. 22 days left.

Last week's project presentation was a slaughtering. Of me and my teammates.

We failed ourselves by not putting enough effort into making the project a success.

That leaves the exam to worry about. Currently obtaining information to stay intact.

Also have to consider ACTUALLY working to obtain money.

It is no sin to be a follower, but it a sin to REMAIN a follower.

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

Day 2 of Ramadhan. The fasting month for many a Muslim.

Where good deeds reward you many times over.

In my case, however, I've got an exam to worry about. Plus an apology that I must make, regrettably, on behalf of my team-mates.

I've every reason to fail this subject, although I must admit that our project was doomed since Day One. We hardly communicated well enough to understand each other.

But enough about that. There's still a few other things that have to be done, and I'm not going to get a second failure.

Times are changing, as far as the eye can see. I hope everything turns out right.

Monday, October 20, 2003

Just adding something for my own reference here:

A VB game design tutorials site!

Good enough for future reference.

And for those of you looking for the TGS 2003 trailer of Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater, check the entry after this one.


Wednesday, October 15, 2003

And there are times...we disagree...
What's right for you is NOT for me....
- singer and song unknown.

Indeed, one man's meat is another man's poison.

Some of you may have been to Faiz Sahri's blog, and read that story on the "99 Club".

Or perhaps the recent tale on "Missing Ribs" in Dhora / Mutiara's blog made you shed a tear or two.

Personally, although they're good stories, nothing beats the stories by the living.

Although I try to live each day as it comes.

Travelling beyond the bounds..
We have to take that step
What are we waiting for?
It's now or never...
- Maki Kirioka, Beyond The Bounds.

I may not be heavily religious, unlike some of my friends, but I do know one thing.

There is always much to learn.

And adding to my musical reverie, check THIS out!

Picked this off Konami's Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater page.

Listen to the music, and tell me if that doesn't sound James Bond-ish.

Would've added that tune's lyrics here, but I need to hear it one more time to recall it.

Monday, October 13, 2003

Currently on OVERDYNE mode. Project's due in 9 days, and I haven't the slightest inkling of what we're supposed to do.

I've been looking up a lot of VB code for this purpose. The code in some sites seems to be much better than what most of my team-mates have offered me.

One minor story I'd like to share with you all.

Last night, around 20:05, I finally reached Klang after an exhausting (but fun) outing in KL.

Called up Mum, and Mum mentioned that I had to get back home on my own.

So I was busy walking along the bridge closest to the ruins of the Great Wall supermarket, just wondering about life.

Halfway across, I spotted two guys FISHING from the safety of the bridge.

What interested me was the fact that their fishing target was a very heavily polluted Klang River. Filled with garbage and loose debris.

In most cases, you'd expect that the river would be too polluted to sustain life.

So, I asked one of them, "You guys fishing?"

Guy smiles, and answers, "Yep."

I ask, "In THERE?"

Guy nods his head, still smiling.

I ask, "Any fish there?"

Guy points to his bicycle, and that's when I noticed a very large red snapper in the bike's basket.

Subhanallah! (Exalted be Allah!)

That's when I learnt that we humans are all fishermen, fishing for fortunes and better lives in this world.

Depending on our dreams and intentions, there are many sorts of fishermen.

Some who'd be satisfied by fishing in the murkiest of rivers, and getting one or two big fish.

Some who'd prefer the choices offered by the oceans of our Earth.

And some who'd use their previous catches to catch bigger and better fish.

So, what are YOU fishing for? ^_^;;

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

From Dr. Maya's blog:

! You are most like An Emerald !
Caring, giving, - and very emotional. You're the
people turn to with a problem. You worry about
and genuinely want to help - a little too much
As an emerald, you tend to take a more backseat to
the other
gems, but your inner beauty soon captivates those
who take
the time to get to know you.
Congratulations ... You're the selfless gem
everybody needs as a friend.

?? Which Precious Gem Are You ??
brought to you by Quizilla

Fate? Perhaps. All I need now is to create an winged emerald ankh sooner or later.

In other news, Tripod's wiped out my old site.

Good thing I still have the original files. I think they STILL can't tolerate ROM posts. Even though the ROM's impossible to find in the US.

6 days since my initial findings. The more I read those excerpts, the sadder I get.

That friend of mine sure has been through a lot of BS in her life. I do wish she'd come round and ask me for advice.

Perhaps she might be much better than she is now.

Thursday, October 02, 2003

I have been betrayed.

One of my closest friends of mine took a decision to adversely affect her life, even after I mentioned that I would always be around to offer her advice whenever she needed it.

Suffice to say, I am terribly aggrieved by her actions. Her decision could come at the cost of her life. Most of our youth today often fail to realize that spur-of-the-moment decisions tend to affect them adversely when they become older (but sometimes NOT always wiser).

Ordinary people would've terminated their friendships if this ever happened to them, but given the fact that they are human, it's forgivable.

In my case, however, all I can do is pray for her safety, and keep my doors open. That way, perhaps her heart might be opened wide enough to notice my comforting presence, and she'll come round to ask me for advice and forgiveness.

This is what will, God willing, separate me from the anger that her actions have caused to me.

And if she happens to be reading this account, God willing, I will honour my promise.

I hope that He grants me the strength to carry on with my mission.

Friday, September 26, 2003

At this moment in time, the world is still in a state of confusion.

We have all been lied to by the greatest nation's government - that of the United States of America.

Suffice to say that the war on Iraq has been a harrowing affair, both for the Iraqians and the American soldiers involved in it.

Operation "Iraqi Freedom" indeed! HAH!

That name is a pure misnomer; the reality couldn't be more different. The Iraqians are still trying to make sense of the "democracy" that has just been forced down on their shoulders. It will be an uphill struggle to understand its true meaning.

But in the meantime, it might be prudent to consider our own safety measures to ensure that we do not end up this way.

The Internet represents a treasure trove of information, just waiting to be tapped and used. Those who fail to utilize it fully, will be brought down by people who do.

My motive here, apart from being a hermit, is to change Fate. We have seen far too much bloodlust and pain in our history.

Therefore, we must prevent the creation of yet another blood-stained entry.

This place is merely a facade for something much greater, and I pray to God that He might allow us an opportunity to change Fate for once. Peace must reign on Earth again.

I hope that I may lead the winds of change towards a new Age. An Age of reasoning, peace, and goodwill amongst us all.

But I cannot do this on my own. So if you're as mad as I am, come round, and let us make plans for the FUTURE!

Monday, September 22, 2003

Wedding's over. Long since.

Nothing can contain my intense envy of those two lovebirds.

I mean, those two looked as if they were MEANT to be together from the start.

And there's one hermit here who wonders more about the future, and its secrets...

Exhibit A. ME.


I promised that I'd mention my rationale for the afore-mentioned pic I grabbed previously.

Luna's the Mana Spirit of Moonlight. Her counterpart is the Mana Spirit of Nature, Dryad.

Of course, I thought that Luna conveys a more accurate message on her own, IMHO.

A bit subtle, I might add.

Because light cannot exist without darkness, and vice versa.

OK, so I'm not really explaining my full rationale behind that pic, but since I haven't seen a single comment in my YACCS and Enetation comment-boxes, should I even bother?

Friday, September 19, 2003

Currently thinking of what to get for Hafsah M. and Imran K.'s wedding tomorrow.

The present's in my hand, but I've not really given much thought to wrapping paper.

I'm half-thinking of bringing in Luna. Oh, and in case you were wondering, Luna's one of the spirits from Seiken Densetsu 3, a pure gem of a Japanese game that Square decided not to bring to the USA and beyond. Because of that, we've had to be content with the fan-translated ROM, instead.

A shame and a pity, that. It really is a good game.

That aside, I've been here:

Square Haven's SD3 section...

...and I've been looking at the Mana Spirit artwork. Lovely.

Although this could get me in trouble for copyright infringement, I've already picked up Luna's pic, for use in a greeting card that'll come with my present for those two newly-weds.

I think that pic's OK. Luna seems a better and much cuter choice than Undine, at this moment.

There's a bit of philosophy behind my decision, but I'll elaborate on that after I return from the wedding tomorrow.

Wish me luck, everyone!

Monday, September 15, 2003

GemWing teleports in...

Looks like this is one of the reasons WHY those search items came up, Saviour-V....look at the URL below!

Real History & MOSSAD, the Israeli Secret Service!

Hmmm.... I see.

Looks like David Duke's not the only one who knows about the Sept 11th Genocide.

Saviour-V, please be careful. I don't want you to die before you complete your mission...

It will be completed, GemWing. Even if I don't get to see its completion.

For there will be others like me, those who wish to expose the unrecorded events of history, and restore TRUTH to our Earth, and revive it from all evil.

Do not fret, my dear. We will succeed in the end.

I do hope you're right, Saviour-V....

GemWing teleports out, while Saviour-V gazes at the heavens...

Sometimes, I HOPE I am...

At this moment, I seem to be the only one who's caused a lot of people to go searching (on Google, no doubt!) for the following items:

2. Israel history.
3. David Duke.
4. Ariel Sharon.
5. Hamas.
6. Aipac (whatever this is, I've no idea).
7. Dante's Inferno (that's the Hell's test for you).
8. Purgatory.
9. Palestine.

In contrast, some of my other friends have other *interesting* search items....

Go and check out the URLs below:

1. Miss Apple's blog.
2. Brother Faiz's blog.

....and look at the search items advertised at the top of their sites.

Semi-savoury, I might add.

And it seems that Enetation is offline this time around....surprisingly.
Just came round after a few errands in APIIT:

1. Retrieved my lost CNDS book.
2. Retrieved my DBS results (I passed!)
3. Found out that I've lost 10 GameFAQs Karma Points for posting something offensive, and yes, it was my fault. I should've been more careful.

There's a minor question I'd like to ask the working generation today:

What is your main reason for being with a company?

For me, it's not merely about the cash; it's about the HONOUR.

I've been through one of the less-than-honest ones once before, and I'm glad that I've got a new job with a new company.

A trend business. An honourable business that keeps me ahead of the pack.

That's a brief description of it. Been with it for 2 months, and although I'm still learning the ropes, I'm glad I'm with it.

Saturday, September 13, 2003

Some of us seem to forget that not all of us appreciate web page music....and I've just come back from two such sites.


Currently adjusting my comment boxes....Enetation's is the "Secondary Teleportation Chamber" entry.

Friday, September 12, 2003

A few minor changes.....I'm still keeping both commenting systems up, as a precaution.

Thursday, September 11, 2003

Looks like a few people have come round....a certain Miss Apple being one of them.

Blogger seems to have undergone changes AGAIN. Can't seem to find the Hyperlink icon to mark her name with.

Either that, or Blogger has ZERO support for Macintoshes.

Anyway, my recruitment drive on GameFAQs has been going smoothly, but i still believe that time may not be on our side.

India's people have protested Ariel Sharon's visit to their country, but it seems that the START2 treaty will be violated again, if that female-named-creep gets his way.

We cannot allow this to happen. David Duke once mentioned that Israel's MOSSAD operatives (and possibly Israel's top brass) have been involved in many crimes that have yet to be dealt with, and i believe that apart from them, there may be other puppeteers waiting in the shadows.

Waiting to make marionettes out of the Earth's people, by any means possible.

Thus, as people who are still sound of mind, we MUST acquire as much knowledge and technology to prepare for any possible onslaught against us.

We cannot allow our history to contain ANOTHER blood-stained entry.

There is, however, one other concern. I suspect that Israel's people may not support their leaders, because they too, are victims of hatred. Just like the Palestinians.

There is a side of me that wishes to completely obliterate both Israel and Palestine in order to close the chapter on the entire Israel VS Palestine issue, but that would be far too harsh for the people of both countries.

Ahh, what a dilemma. I believe that this post might irk both sides, but I speak the truth. I assure you, gentlemen, that our time will come.

A true time when wars and suffering will be a thing of the past. However, we MUST work towards it.

May our work be blessed, regardless of who our Gods may be.

Wednesday, September 03, 2003

Just activated Enetation. YACCS is down, and I've no idea when it'll be back online.

Not sure if I can use both at the same time, so consider this a temporary test run.

Let's hope it turns out well.

Tuesday, September 02, 2003

GemWing and I haven't been in close contact, off late.

Fact is, I haven't been relying on her sound judgement when I should.

There have been times when I tend to overreact and cause more trouble than usual, even though I mean well.

Not that anyone's going to take much notice. "To each, his own!" they'd say.

Life remains a mystery to me. Its intricacies, biases, and such.

I hope that I can unravel it all in my lifetime....being the pseudo-philosopher I am.

Monday, September 01, 2003

Anyway, just continuing....

Sat down in the kitchen of my house today, watching the evening sun pass me by.


And I was just appreciating the beauty of that evening, if Mum hadn't caught me snacking.

Yeez. Can't seem to avoid interruptions, these days.
From Mudster's blog, I've taken the following test:

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Extreme
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)High
Level 2 (Lustful)Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Low
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Very Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

I must say that although I indulge in a few sins, I do have a good Guardian Spirit on my side.


Friday, July 25, 2003

Life seems to be improving lately.

Could be my new business, or the fact that I've started forgetting more.


Looked up a few blogs:

1. Eisu's.
2. Aimo's.
3. Kotak's.

....and I must say that life's going pretty smooth for 'em.

Won't be talking to them just yet. Need to get a few things up first.

Question for a few people (taken from Bruce Almighty, not out yet in Malaysia, but....):

If you were God, what would you do? How can you handle the most greatest responsibility in the universe?

OK, that's TWO questions. Not that it matters much.

Any answers?

Monday, July 07, 2003

Looks like Blogger's been busy, lately.

Nice new interface.

That aside, I've just returned from a business convention in Johor Bahru, close enough to the Causeway leading to Singapore.

Picked up quite a lot of information regarding my new business.

Oh, and in case you're wondering, I've joined a new line of work. Instead of working for others, I'm working for myself.

And believe me, nothing beats making your own money. Still have a lot to learn though....^_^;;

For any Hira'kians that have just arrived, Assalamualaikum to ya, and welcome to my humble abode.

One thing I've learnt over the past 2 days is that we've all got potential to change ourselves, and the lives of others. If you're either DEAD or unwilling to help other people change for the better, things might just get worse.

Yesterday, one of the speakers at that talk brought out a DVD called "A Beautiful Life". He then told us a bit about what that movie was about.

The movie starts out with a view of Heaven and 3 guardian angels looking at the Earth. One says to the other, "You'd best get down there; someone needs your help a lot!"

So while this one angel flies down to Earth to help this person, a flashback of that person's life is shown in Heaven. This guy did a few good things in his lifetime:

1. During winter, his brother fell into a pond when the ice on its surface broke. Had he not been there, his brother would've died.

2. This guy's dad made homes for families with low funds. Unfortunately, he died, leaving that business in his son's hands. Along with debts, too. Plus a major threat: a greedy business tycoon who wanted to flatten those houses to make way for a shopping mall!

3. He found the love of his life, and married her.

4. He owned a pub, and frequently invited his friends over.

Flashback ends, and we now return to our earlier guardian angel, who appears just before that very person attempts to kill himself by throwing himself off a bridge. Luckily, the angel manages to save him just in time!

So once this guy is safely on firm ground, the angel asks him the reason why he wanted to kill himself. The guy replies, "My life's lost its meaning. I can't go on anymore; I'm better off dead."

The angel grants his wish. Of course, the guy's still alive, but in the eyes of others, he's DEAD. Then, the angel shows him the results of his death:

1. Because he wasn't there, his brother died, and was mourned immensely by his family.

2. The low-cost houses were never built. Instead, there was nothing but cleared land, to make way for that shopping mall.

3. The love of his life never found her love, and ended working in a library until she became a very old and frail spinster. Also, a man-hater. In fact, when that "dead" guy shows up, she says, "I don't know you! Leave me alone!" as she runs away from him.

4. The pub now belonged to the greedy business tycoon.

Now, in case you had trouble understanding the above, there are some lessons to be learnt here:

1. It is tough to DIE, but it is even tougher to LIVE!

2. If you FAIL to make the lives of others better, everyone suffers!

So keep those lessons in mind, and keep an eye out for my next update.

Friday, May 23, 2003

The Iraqi sanctions have finally been lifted after 13 years....but the damage has already been done.

And the WMDs have not yet been found at all.

I suspect something far greater is afoot. I do hope that nothing REALLY NASTY happens throughout this year....but I think this is more of wishful thinking, judging from human character.

Our greedy tendencies will speed our doom if we fail to focus on the people who will be affected by our actions.

Enough said.

Apart from this opinion, I've switched from Maxis Mobile to Hotlink after 2 months of not being able to make any phone calls. Hope everything works out.

Thursday, May 01, 2003

It seems that I'm always the last to know.

About life.

About truth.

About survival.

Saddam has long since fallen, but the US influence can still be felt in Iraq. God knows what will happen next.

I doubt that I can say anything more about this, as my current situation disallows access from my own territory.

In time, however, I'll be updating this place more often.

On a personal note, my new job stinks. It's tough getting people to buy a product when they've heard so much bad news about it.

Even if it's broadband Internet services. Really.

Lately, I've also sensed that my criminal instincts have begun to awaken. Not a very good development at all.

Ahh, well.

Wednesday, April 02, 2003

There's been a lot of sabotage work going on, and I suspect that the US government has something to say about that.

First off, the Al-Jazeera news was hacked a week ago by a group of hackers calling themselves the "Freedom Cyber Force Militia".

A rather lame name to begin with, plus the effort managed to deny lots of people access to groundbreaking news in Iraq.

Raed's blog was also tampered with, apparently by a disgruntled individual. Instead of eye-witness accounts from an Iraqian blogger's eye, the public was subjected to a faked shot of Bush holding Saddam in a playful headlock.

Hardly worth it, I might add.

And recently, 7 people were gunned down mercilessly at the Iraqian border checkpoint. By US soldiers, no doubt.

Innocent women and children....SLAIN!

Damn those two idiots! They're only generating hatred against themselves...when will they EVER learn?

I believe we should teach those two a lesson. If anyone wants to know more about my plans, you may find me at GameFAQs, at the Asian boards.

GL,GS. (Good luck, and Godspeed.)

Friday, March 21, 2003

Well...it's begun.

Two days ago, Bush issued Saddam Hussein an ultimatum: leave Iraq, or FIGHT!

Undoubtedly, Saddam refused.

The deadline ended at around 9:00 a.m. Malaysian time (4:00 a.m. Baghdad time). An hour and a half later, around 10:30 a.m. (5:30 a.m. in Baghdad), the attack began.

Now, all we can do is wait. I'll follow up to this update later on....I need to collect my thoughts on this.

Monday, March 10, 2003

GemWing takes over Saviour-V's consciousness...

Lately, Saviour-V's been undergoing a bit of stress. Money issues, apparently.

Good thing that he's got something planned....although he needs to refine his plan to a certain degree.

GemWing leaves Saviour-V's consciousness..

It's moderately tough thinking for oneself, much less for two, or more, at times.

Anyway, I ended up in Penang a few days back. Distant cousin got married.

Left on Friday night (7-3-2003), and got back home on Sunday night. Here's a run-through:

21:00 Friday night - 01:00 Saturday morning:

Barely managed to sleep throughout the trip.

Father's driving nearly drove me mad. A few near-misses, but thankfully, no casualties.

I hope I manage to stay awake if I EVER have to drive anywhere in the dead of night myself.

We finally arrived at an uncle's house (hereafter referred to as Uncle S) in Penang, but I hardly slept well enough; I think my nerves were still frazzled then.

08:00 Saturday morning:

Having rested sufficiently (or NOT, in my case), our uncle led us to another uncle's restaurant.

Pure Penangite buffet. Excellent bread and chicken curry, if I say so myself.

11:00 Saturday morning - 01:15 Sunday morning:

We checked into the Agora Hotel, which was moderately close to Penang's Komtar and Prangin Mall shopping complexes.

Ironically, this same hotel was directly in front of our previous haunt from last year - the Midtowne Hotel.

Not too bad, but the place was QUITE old. But sometimes, age can be a good thing.

Around mid-day, my parents left to attend someone's funeral, leaving me in charge of my two youngest brothers. Plus a sizable sum of money (RM 50 - around 13 USD, but who's complaining? ^_^;;) as well, some of which ended up in Prangin Mall's arcades.

Met a girl round there, and gave her a bit of help with L.A. Machineguns. Quite satisfying, since I'm usually on my own in most arcades. Shidah, if, by some stroke of fortune, you're reading this, thanks.

Returned back to the hotel at 15:00, just to drop off the kids, then went to a few nearby cybercafes. Finally found out that Kotaro Makaritooru is OUT, so here's the place: MangaDownloads.

You've got until Wednesday. (CURRENT UPDATE: you DON'T have much time left...this blog entry's old)

For Malaysian readers of this series (known as "Pakar Judo" there), leave a nicely worded comment in my comment-box or Tag-Board, and I might tell you about what got censored in our copies. Or just pick 'em up and appreciate.

Sometime around 19:00, we went out for dinner, and I must admit that NOTHING ever comes close to Penang-style cooking. Even Penang-style burgers are different.

Take it from someone who had 2 such burgers in that very same night...^_^;; Masala Steaks are hard to find in Selangor, but easy to find along the Penang Esplanade. They're great!

After stuffing ourselves, we took a short walk. Mum gave us a minor history lesson, mentioning her favourite haunts when she was younger...quite informative, I might add.

By 23:00 we returned to our room. I left for the cybercafes again. Got back around 1 in the morning, and slept like a log.

10:00 Sunday morning - 23:00 Sunday night:

Went for breakfast, and Prangin Mall as well. Picked up a few good books there.

Around 12:00, we checked out of our hotel, and drove to our cousin's wedding banquet, which, to our surprise, took place in a wet market! Now, I do believe that you're shocked to hear about that, but let me explain.

The wet market merely occupied the ground floor of a 3-storey community hall, while the banquet took place on the 1st floor above it, fortunately.

We would've left sooner, but several relatives noticed our parents, and a long conversation took place.

We finally left the place at 16:30 and made our way back to Uncle S's place. Stayed for a few hours, then left for home at 19:45.

Got back at 23:00.

Overall, not a bad experience. Hope that we can visit Penang again, later on, this year.

Tuesday, March 04, 2003

A quick recap of last week:


Went to APIIT (KL branch) to clarify a few issues. Picked up the Japanese version of Zone Of The Enders 2 (ANUBIS: ZOE) for a mere RM $5.00. Less than 2 USD, in case you're wondering.

Also spent some time in the arcades in the relative area. No KOF 2002 Athena players at all. The usual disappointments (i.e: people ending up losing their first team members to Omega Rugal....as usual.) since 1998.


Finally got to test ANUBIS: ZOE on my friend's PS2. He was kind enough to come round and visit us, even though he preferred translated games to Japanese ones. Trouble was, my younger brother got in more game time than I did.

Me? I got into a few issues with my parents that day....ended up doing quite a bit of kitchen work...>_<


My friend, TYK, invited us over to his place for a 2nd crack at his PS2.

Great moments there included:

1. Metal Gear Solid 2: Substance.
Snake Tale B: Big Shell Evil.

a. At one point, figuring out a possible "safe spot" to kill as many soldiers as possible, when in truth, Solid Snake was supposed to ESCAPE with Emma in tow. You can guess that the fun faded once the ammo ran out....^_^;;

b. Sending a few Stinger missiles into the Harrier when it tried to roast Snake with the steam from its nozzles. 3 missiles, and it broke into Tomahawk Mode....

c. Yelling "Tomahawk!!" like a crazed madman the very minute the missiles started coming...and dying after the burns were too much.

Later, we found a Ration, and took down the Harrier with extreme prejudice, thus finishing that Snake Tale.

Not-so-good moments:

1. ANUBIS: Zone Of The Enders (Zone Of The Enders: The Second Runner - Japanese version).
Versus Mode.

a. Not being able to beat TYK again.

In all of my Jehuty VS Jehuty matches against him, he emerged the victor, 5-0.

Although I very nearly changed that to 3-2, he recovered very quickly just before I managed to land the final hit against him, on both occasions.Quite humiliating.

Not much difference from last time. That guy can be a real Jehuty FIEND at times. Ever since the first ZOE, too.

Ahh, but there's always next time....^_^;;

Sunday, February 23, 2003

*GemWing takes over Saviour-V's consciousness...*

Yep, the guy's been taking things a bit too hard lately.

Oops, forgot to introduce myself. I'm GemWing, Saviour-V's resident spirit. Or a latent personality sleeping within the guy, if you prefer.

Been with him for quite a long time, seen him through some of his darker moments. Wish I could actually help him out, though.

But it's tough. He's got a certain fatalistic attitude that's quite hard to shake off at times. Plus that belief about Phase-Based Behavioural Transfers, whatever that is...

Might explain the mood swings and pseudo-suicidal tendencies that come up a few times or so.

He should try to increase his knowledge about others, and about himself as well. Perhaps then, he may find a physical manifestation of me somewhere in the real world.

Until then, rest assured that I won't show up too often here, except to offer my two cents on his life, or anyone else's, for that matter.

Be seein' ya!

*GemWing leaves Saviour-V's consciousness...*

Good ol' GemWing, always looking out for me. Although she tends to be a bit mischievous at times.

Ah, well, who knows?

Anyway, interruptions aside, the American government (Bush included) is NOT backing down from waging war against Iraq, no matter whatever efforts the world is doing to stop that calamity from occurring.

IMHO, I think that every American, or for that matter, any person (regardless of religion), who thinks that Bush's actions are wrong should consider slitting their veins and dying. For each person killed in Iraq, another person must willingly die as well.

What good will Bush accomplish from the war if he has no people to keep his memories alive? He was elected on the support of the American people, and without that support, his efforts will be futile.

It may be a bad idea, but considering that he's shrugged off most peaceful protests so far, THIS might just get him to listen.

I'm not exhorting anyone to kill each other. Only thing is, if Bush continues his destructive ways, he will have to do so without the support of anyone in the world. That man is becoming a tyrant, and if tyrants cannot be stopped by force, lack of support is the one thing that will do them in.

If he realizes that his actions have a heavy price, then he might just consider it.

Of course, I still doubt he will.
One or two people dead? Laughable, at best.

1000? A cause for concern.

A whole county? A state? A-ha, now we have something! He'd have to worry about funeral expenses.

God frowns upon suicide, but when all else fails, a heart defiant against the wishes of tyranny will be forgiven, I can promise you that.

The worst fate that can befall a person is loneliness. It can drive people to the brink of despair. Hence why I believe this idea is quite potent. If anyone is brave (or foolish enough) to do it.

I know I'm not yet qualified for it, but I believe that we cannot allow tyranny to flourish.

This comment may be deleted by someone who disagrees with me, but if this comment makes it to the world, let it be known that Saviour-V has broken his silence. He will no longer be silent about this grave injustice.

May God bless us all.

Sunday, February 16, 2003

Cold's gone, although it comes back once in a while.

Unfortunately, other things are not going my way:

1. Comp's affected with some sort of instability; some DLLs seem to be corrupt or missing!

2. Comp's also showing its age; that nasty fan-whirr is driving me towards the edge of insanity.

3. Anubis: ZOE (Zone Of The Enders: The 2nd Runner) is out....but NOT in MY hands...>_<
The Japanese version was released a day before Valentine's Day....damn it!

4. Haven't come up with a brainwave for anything good so far....it worries me.

Ahh, well. Just hope it doesn't get worse....^_^;;

Friday, February 07, 2003

To quote K0tak: Dis ducks!

Someone sneezed during Friday prayers and left me with a nasty cold. Sneezed all the way from around mid-day to 22:17 or so.

It's surprising that no one's ever managed to figure out the secrets of the common cold. Might help out a lot.

In other news, an old friend came round. A certain Rafiq. Says he knows about ol' Booya, even though he's under a different discipline.

Might consider talking to him on other things as well; it's been a long time.

Also, I've got a burning question for the ones who actually take the trouble to come round here:

What matters more in life, strength of execution or method of execution?

Strength of execution relies less on the thinking mind and more on emotions, while method of execution focuses more on thought than emotions.

Some of you might prefer one over the other, but I think a balance between the two seems more likely to succeed in life.

But when I compare myself against ONE person, I can't help but feel that we're both losers; he focuses on strength of execution, while I focus more on method of execution. That might explain why he's got a social life, and why I have nothing.

Yin cannot survive without Yang, and neither can Yang survive without Yin.

Well, what do you think?

Wednesday, February 05, 2003

WinAmp 3 Jukebox Entry #20: Act On Instinct (from Command And Conquer)

We are going to have to act.....if we want to live in a different world.

Wise words. Yet, even I myself have NOT acted upon them yet.

The Columbia tragedy, the upcoming war against Iraq, my life. Not much I've done to change these. Got to, though. It's expected, anyway.

Personally, a social life would help, but I need more than just contact; I need sources of information. Preferably, enough to create a coalition of some sort.

Combined information / knowledge is much more useful than individually separate items. Let me know of anything interesting, and we should get along pretty well.

And speaking of knowledge, has anyone ever gone taken the MCSE (Microsoft Certified Software Engineer.....or was it System Engineer?) exam? I need a rundown on the course.....I've picked up a training guide of sorts off the public market....any hints on the subjects involved?

I'd appreciate any help you've got.

Monday, February 03, 2003

Chinese New Year's come round.

Formalities aside, a word of comfort to those whose family members perished in the Columbia Shuttle accident....but I can tell you one thing, however.

No one can ever hope to live forever, though I sincerely wish I could. But that would mean that I'd have to be a Time-Keeper to actually live that long.

Looked up a few random things lately. Tough when it comes to life, but who can tell?

Just hope that things reveal themselves, in due time.

Monday, January 20, 2003

Rockman Zero.

Enough for me. Sort of.

Another person I know has a crush on Roronoa Zoro, from One Piece. Me? I'm a Rockman X fan / wannabe.

Or maybe not. Since Zero came into the picture. Now, all I need are a few good images, and I'm all set.

Might even consider other things as well.

49-1-169-25-361 256-324-225-49-324-1-169-169-81-196-49, perhaps.

(Note: The embolded discourse above is currently written under GameFAQs influence, so if you're a member, you'll know what I'm up to. Otherwise, good luck with the guesswork!)

Mental note: Need to increase my knowledge of encrypting / decrypting. I owe Booya a bit for it.

Thursday, January 16, 2003

On Thursday, Jan 16th 2003, Saviour-V's connection was restored!

Back in action / reincarnated from the dead.....although I know not how long.

Took me a long time to figure out the access number, though.

Anyway, back to finding items for the SE resit....^_^;;

Monday, January 13, 2003

And for those of you out there, allow me to explain what Fate's Scythe is.

Its insignia is a 3-horned skull with an angel's halo above it, and angelic wings on its left and right sides. Below the skull are a pair of scythes, crossed like crossbones on a pirate's flag, curved sides inward.

The symbolism of all this is that for all the efforts a human does in this life, Death will surely follow (the crossed scythes). However, even before he dies (and even after), his actions may either lead him to salvation (the angel's halo) or destruction (the horned skull).

Fate is in essence, unavoidable. But no one knows the Final Judgement, not even me.

Apart from indicating Death, the twin scythes also indicate unfortunate incidents, things attributed to bad luck or misfortune, if you will. And the angelic wings normally indicate good luck or incidents that actually go right.

Every person on this Earth has a fair chance of witnessing this insignia in one form or another. But how they interpret it is a question.

Previously, I thought of Fate's Scythe as something that would eliminate me, or my closest family members and friends, if I failed to be careful about what I did in the world.

That's why I usually apologized to other people, even for incidents not necessarily my fault, because I feared that the Scythe would strike against my life and ruin it altogether.

That's why I wanted to sacrifice my own life, so that others would survive.

That's also why I hoped to protect as many people I could, for I knew (or at least THOUGHT I knew) that it would strike them first before turning its focus on ME.

I know better now. Fate's Scythe has as much chance of hitting anyone as much as it can hit me, but even for what I do, there is always some forgiveness.

I know now that I cannot protect everyone; if I were the only one destroyed, the Earth would overflow with people before long.

I know now that I must be more patient, for I now know that unless I obtain enough wisdom from the Creator, my knowledge is meaningless. A time will come for me to disseminate my knowledge, but now ISN'T the time yet.

I will continue to leave some of my findings about what this world has for us, but bear in mind that I cannot be summoned to assist you fully. A Saviour must know himself before he can help others to live their lives properly.

I know that it is my duty. Comrades, I thank you for your advice.
Well, shortly after a minor exchange with a comrade from long ago, albeit a young one, plus my father's advice afterward, I must say that a few things are going to happen.

A bit of history though....after my sister passed away, my life ended up on an express trip to Melancholia; a place were hopes and dreams go to die. That is where I found out a mere fraction about Fate's Scythe. Yet, it changed my life, for the worst!

It was difficult to focus on life thereafter, having felt that Fate's Scythe would always pursue me, no matter where I went. Around then, I believed that if I helped out people a lot, in any way possible, I could keep Fate's Scythe off my head, and away from my family and closest friends.

For something more or less imaginary (yes, the Scythe DOES exist, but it's job is different than what I'd usually know it for), I believed in its influence for a very long time.

That feeling came from a severe amount of loneliness, which is tough for me to adjust to, even now.

But, I must.

Accurately, I WILL get over the feeling of Death that I've gotten accustomed to, and finish off my life in the best way possible.

We are all actors on a stage, manipulated by the Creator himself, but the roles we play are unknown, even to us.

Some of us will have to cope with sacrifices on their behalf; Eisu lost his father, and so did Gen. They both managed to overcome their grief, but I'm still struggling to come to terms with mine.

Personally, I thank the former for mentioning that I possessed "false pride". Perhaps, you were right. Though I myself genuinely don't know how.

If I knew how Fate and God filtered properly into our lives, I would have a much better picture on Life than I already do.

And this is what I intend to accomplish. To this end, I will continue to research and obtain knowledge and wisdom about the Earth and humanity, and of God, for He is the One Who Owns All Knowledge.

If anyone asks for my advice, I will give it to them, but only if they genuinely need it. I do NOT intend to let my emotions get in the way again.

In addition, to Eisu, Aimo, and Zid, I'm deliberately going to forget about the 3 of you. But don't get me wrong.

Because, the first time, I foolishly believed that I was your equal, your friend, even, but I was proven wrong. That indicates that I'm not worthy of holding an audience with experts just yet, for I lack enough wisdom to be one myself.

Therefore, I will forget about your comments against me, and any memories (good or bad) that have occurred before, and the next time I see any of you, it will be as if we first met. No bias against each other, a clean slate, if you prefer.

I hope that God grants me this, and that you all will forget about me, until He calls for us to properly sit down and exchange pleasantries on a proper level. I genuinely wish that we could've been friends, but for now, we part as mere acquaintances. You all don't know me much, and neither do I know much about you all.

Therefore, I leave it to His Judgement to decide whether we will meet a second time. I look forward to that day.

On that day, we will discuss some affairs that actually relate to us overall.

Sunday, January 12, 2003

Visited Mudster today. Picked up my Jaffa Cakes from him.

Also picked up a stash of chocolate rice (6 boxes X 12 packets each!) from my uncle's house in the relative area.

Back home, Mum really enjoyed the Jaffa Cakes, and so did I, but it was tough reliving old memories.....from a time long gone, and past.

Aimo still has my blood on her sleeve, and I doubt forgiveness will come easy from her. And to think that all it took was a well-intended comment (or several) to put her nerves on edge, and Fate's Scythe on my neck, and my family's necks as well.

If it weren't for my exam resit this 20th, I'd have come round to the Comic Fiesta Aftershock this 17th - 19th of January to apologize in person.

Things are not going to be easy from here on out....Death will surely come for me this time.

It nearly came for one of my relatives yesterday.....her weak heart's been giving her trouble, aggravated by Fate's Scythe.

And it will surely come for me as well, for I owe a person a debt in poisoned blood, and unless I pay off the debt, my life will be forfeit.

To those whom I offended, previously, happen to read this, take heed that this is an apology with Fate's Scythe as a surety.

You have my permission to eliminate me fully, if I offend you again.

Fate, I'm consigning my life to you.

Wednesday, January 08, 2003

This year's started off with a bang.

Not to mention several false starts, and some major accidents.

On the foreign front, you've got 2 parties that are thinking of wiping each other out. Round here, there are some people who just can't stand me.

Tough job keeping the balance between the two without taking injuries either way.

And I wonder why I took up this job in the first place.

Friday, January 03, 2003

And speaking of washouts....

Looks like this blog's one such item...^_^;;

I doubt that the first two people mentioned would ever come round here. Busy, as they are.

And I also doubt that anyone else is interested in this blog. But, I'm not giving up.

There may be those who are willing enough to listen to the scrap of truth hidden in the ramblings of this old hermit....^_^;;

Ahh, well.

Anyway, some of you might be wondering why I brought up the Athena issue. Fact is, I've played the very first game: an action-adventure game, to be exact. Old enough, I might add. Circa 1980-something. Athena's come a long way since then.

And adding to my talent pool, is a certain Rina, from Rinacat.com. There's something in her drawings that reminds me of something from a long time ago...can't say it just yet.

Every one of us has gained a year, but are we really wiser for it? I doubt that.

There is still much to be done.
2002....the year that was....

...A MEDIUM-SIZED WASHOUT, to put it plainly. Here's a quick rundown:

Took shrapnel from a few people on the 'Net, including Aimo and Zid. OK, so I tend to ramble too much (in Zid's case) or overdo my generosity (in the Aimo fiasco...say, that rhymes...@_@), but I sincerely hope that we can all get along with each other without tearing each other to pieces over a misplaced comment or two. Truce? Hope you'll agree, comrades.

Genetic Modification seems to have a lot of issues behind it....this URL contains a lot of details (although it's not involved with the Ring in any way. Happy now, Zid?).

What worries me is that the Monsanto Corporation was ALSO involved in Malaysia a long time ago. God knows what kind of toxins must've ended up in our bloodstreams by now.

There's also talk of war; at this very moment, both the United States Of Amerika (deliberate mispelling, due to contempt) and Iraq (who's also not worth respecting, either) are poised for a nasty fight.


Haven't they learnt anything? The annals of history clearly show that when the blood of a nation / religion begins to run freely, all others will surely follow! The Holocaust and World War II (complete with Hiroshima's destruction) are just a few examples of what happens when this rule is flouted.

Yet, humanity...it ceases to learn from the past. Hence why we're all paying for this whole mess with our lives.

Three items mentioned already? Let's see....

Very nearly got involved in an accident (as the previous blog entry clearly stated) this year. Still alive. Much to the chagrin of some who'd prefer me dead. Rest assured, my death will come....in time.

Just one more thing. My sister, Siti Aisyah, passed away at 3:00 p.m., May 6th, 2002. I wept for her, as I continue to weep for those who were killed in the World Trade Centre Incident (11th Sept 2001) and to the Palestinians who were forced out of their homes, some killed, even.

I grieve that we have become less tolerant of people. Our morals have suffered to a certain degree. Are we really, truly, worthy of being humans on this Earth, if all we think about is hurting each other?

Right, that's 5 items.

Now for the good news.

My patience has not yet disappeared from my heart, throughout 2002.

My sanity is relatively intact, although my mind says otherwise...(yes, Zid, I'm rambling again...^_^;;)

My endurance has still served me well, and I thank God that it has. Gen can attest to that. ^_~

Thanks to a DIE-T I'm on, I've lost some weight. With luck, I should reach 80 or 70 kgs, sooner or later.

Now the only thing is technology. There's been a surplus of new technologies in the world today, especially in tissue regeneration and replication of semiconductor materials. Popular Science has most of that info.

The only thing left is to strengthen myself to face this new year, and my life thereafter, in the best way I can.

I've a long way before I can claim that coveted rank I've been lusting for all this time. It's up to me to make the best of it.

Saviour-V opens a door right behind him, which leads into a room with lots of food, and a few good consoles to boot!

Happy (Belated) New Year. Hope that things progress well enough for you, no matter where you are.