Thursday, December 19, 2002

One thing I've realized after I read Kalamari's blog today was that us humans have become less forgiving over the past 2 decades or so. How saddening.

Only yesterday, when my brother was bringing me back from work, did I get to see just how fatal this flaw could get.

It was a rather rainy evening, sometime after 6:30 p.m. Malaysian time. My brother was driving, listening to the radio (on full blast, as usual...).

Inevitably, we ended up in a minor traffic jam (due to the weather, no doubt...) on a rather narrow road. Things were inching by...

Until some idiot attempted to overtake our car (and force us onto the sidewalk) and SUCCEEDED in getting past us. Although I was momentarily annoyed by that guy's actions, my brother did the UNTHINKABLE.


Ignoring his own safety, and mine as well.

Now, I've had my share of idiocy in the past. Some idiot of a motorcyclist (with girlfriend in tow) chased me after I nearly bumped into him (although it was HIS FAULT for coming through the other side of a one-way road!). When I stopped on one side of the road, he came up to my car, slapped me, and nearly broke my windows too. I've been cursing that guy with a Death's Curse ever since that episode, which happened in 1999.

But that does NOT compare to what my brother did yesterday. Had he gotten into anything unexpected, both of us might have had to pay dearly for it.

How idiotic of him!

Anger is a dangerous emotion to carry around. If it is not controlled well enough, it may spell the end of many a good relationship.

Which is why I prefer to avoid nasty confrontations. Officially, I was a bit aggrieved at one person's comments on her blog when I genuinely offered assistance, yesterday. But I believe that she had her reasons, so I sincerely apologize.

However, I do wish she'd control her anger. For a person to reach the blessed status of being properly human, he / she must control his / her anger, and only use it when the situation calls for it.

Ah, well, I'm rambling by myself again. Although not many people visit this derelict home of a hermit...^_^;;

"Humanity may have gained lots of knowledge over the years, but wisdom is still lacking in most of them, even now...." - Saviour-Crisis-V.

Wednesday, December 18, 2002

The art of flattery is a delicate art. As is the art of true praise. Both are hard to distinguish, and are frequently misunderstood.

A pity. But such is the nature of most humans; they tend to focus on what they see, and fail to sense what's inside of what they see.

I pray that I don't become one myself. At times, there are cases when I tend to hurt / injure people indirectly, and for this, I sincerely apologize.

But I'm only doing what I believe is right. Or, at least, is right according to the One above.

Even though I sometimes have the impression that He's a nasty cosmic joker....hmph.

Ah, human nature. How utterly unpredictable. That's what makes our lives such a mess.

Finding the perfect specimen amidst the rubble is difficult to say the least. That's just the way it is.

We strive for perfection, failing to realize that we ourselves are purposely flawed to begin with, and are, thereby, doomed, never to reach that perfect 100% in our lives. Yet, we ignore that, and continue on.

What we should be doing is to strengthen our weaknesses, and stand up together as a whole unit. If it were only THAT simple.

You can tell that some things in life really aggravate my emotional stability, at points.

Guess I should've listened to my Dad and kept my advice to those that really DO want to hear it. But I have my reasons for acting the way I am.

Perhaps, I too, wish to achieve perfection. A way to improve the lives of humanity. A utopia to govern the earth, if I ever live to create and rule it.

Many people fought for this dream in the past, with many variations. Even Hitler. Misguided one, though he may be.

I just hope that the One above grants me enough wisdom to prevent such calamities from re-occurring. hear that?

That's the sound of pure silence. Precisely what happens when your own brother finishes off your handphone's credit.

Also occurs in games such as Final Fantasy, Seiken Densetsu 3 (Japanese version of Secret Of Mana 3), and Parasite Eve.

Hurts lots.

The ability to convey what one's feelings are towards his / her friends and family is invaluable....once that gift is gone, only memories will remain. A gift that I value even more than usual, ever since my sister passed away this year.

And yet, there are those that prefer not to appreciate such gifts. People who say that these gifted people are "patronizing" and such.

Is it wrong to offer assistance to anyone? I most certainly don't think so. Although care should be exercised, nonetheless.

Just my 2 cents against a particular someone....thou knowest best what thou art, comrade...your eyes say it all!

And now, to focus on other issues. The recently ended Comic Fiesta 2002 was a relatively interesting event. Perfect for gathering contacts for future reference.

Perhaps we might be able to produce our own Mr. Yoji Shinkawa on our shores. Such talent should not be wasted. Talent that many people, including myself, could use.

No sign of any Athena Asamiya cosplayers, though. And just a reminder, folks. Athena Asamiya's got a relatively average history for a game character, but in KOF 2002, she's got more effectiveness than several issues before.

Plus a new look, and a Goddess form that emphasizes a fact from long ago...take it from a game historian, like myself.

I've joined Xaph's message-boards and I'll say one thing about 'em; they lack activity. That might be due to our activeness in other boards / other things.

Still need more materials, funds and information to create that Elemental Generator that I've been thinking about so far...could use a few URLs to good research sites.

On the gaming front, I finished off Alien 3 for the Sega Genesis. On a ROM. Tough game on Hard difficulty, but entertaining.

I wonder why I can't get the same high from the Alien VS Predator (by Fox Studios, not Capcom) series.

Ah, well. Wish me luck in my endeavours, especially in my studies. And in my workplace, too.

Monday, December 02, 2002

To quote a few lines from Santana:

This life ain't good enough....

Comp's in the repair shack, for causes that have gotten much worse than a simple fan-cleaning...

Not a single chance to play / review a good game....

Not a single ounce of new technology to sight / use at all...

This is starting to get mighty boring. Will someone toss a PS2 / GameCube / X-Box my way, please?

Before my circuits start going haywire.....^_^;;